Lately, every day seems to be a challenge. Some days are better than others.
My weeks are spent going through the motions....work, walk, eat, relax then bed and do it all over again. While 200 miles away my sweet husband is doing the same alone.
My weeks are spent feeling half-full....I long everyday for Friday when I get to see my husband. We are literally living for the weekends.
This has proven to be such a trying time in our journey together. We want more than anything to officially start our lives together in the same city but we are stuck between a rock and a hard place with our current job situation. We are praying constantly and trusting that soon things will work out.
Leading up to the wedding and in the months since I have told myself repeatedly that it will all be worth it in the end...that this time will go by fast...and that we can handle it for a short time. Trying to remind myself that we are both blessed with great jobs and opportunities that others don't have. I've genuinely had a positive attitude and have stayed as optimistic as possible until lately.
Some days the distance takes it's toll on me. I find myself becoming bitter lately and I HATE that.
I find myself so frustrated seeing other couples living happily together, getting to enjoy everyday life together when quite honestly we don't even feel married some days.
I'm not asking for any kind of sympathy....I guess I just needed a place to vent a little tonight.
I thought about sitting down and sharing some new paintings and my upcoming endeavors to bring them to others but instead I just needed to talk.
So...be looking for more posts to come about what I do during the weeks to occupy my nights.
I pray for this bitterness to go away because it's not how I want to be.
Thanks for reading and stay tuned for happier, craftier posts!